Wednesday, February 3, 2010

2-3-2010. The day my life began...

I've been lied to only to find out I had been lied to again. I had been hurt more than I thought possible. Twice. I was angry beyond imagination.

But then... Then I held you.

The anger disappeared. The room spun away. Sounds became low whispers and quickly faded to nothing at all. Colors muted, all but vanishing. A peaceful darkness enveloped us. I existed only between nowhere and infinity. There was nothing.

But you.

My heart swelled and was overcome with new-found emotions. The hairs on the back of my neck stood up straight, as if in a state of heightened awareness, and my brain raced to take in the touch, sight, and smell of you, a thousand mental pictures snapping in every second. My hands trembled, completely unaware of what was taking place. You opened your eyes and looked directly into mine. At this moment I am the proudest I have ever been in my life.

With all the delicacy I have ever managed to muster, I wiped the tears from your face. But they were not yours. They were mine.

I have never, nor will I ever, manage to create something as beautiful as you. Jace Xander Thomas Harwood... You are my masterpiece, my Sistine Chapel, my Mona Lisa...

My son.

P.S. I'm sorry about the chin. I didn't get to pick which parts of me you got buddy.

P.S.S. Prepare for the thickest eyebrows ever. You're not even supposed to have those right now.


  1. awwww well written Josh! Welcome to as you have known it will never be the same again! :) Congrats a million times! ~Dailyn

  2. great post ...

    every day my oldest daughter runs after me when im leaving for work she always tells me the same thing....

    daddy you forgot something

    i say ... what

    she always says

    your big hug and kiss daddy... you cant go to work without a big hug and kiss

    i smile and it makes those next few minutes great no matter how much i dread what is next

  3. That is an awesome story. Very sweet of her. I can see how that could light up your world.

    @ Dailyn, thank you!!!